July 29, 2005

a weary wait.

life is waiting, don't yu think so? ever since we were brought into existence, we've been waiting, and waiting, AND waiting. right now, i guess most of us probably can't wait for our promos/a levels to be over. nonetheless, we're still waiting for all the dreadful exams to end because we haven't got much of a choice, have we? so all in all, LIFE IS WAITING.
i heard i was being random.

anyway. i'm not supposed to be here, i know. but i came online to settle some notice board stuff and i'll be going off pretty soon! but before i take my leave, I NEED TO KNOW WHAT JIE YING'S SURNAME IS! bytheway, i faintly hear my chem AND math tutorials calling. but heck, i'm dying of fatigue! my time management sucks, haha.

it's friday! the week has almost come to an end, and this also means that there's one LESS week to promos. oh gosh, eight weeks left to promos. there won't be enough time to study. scrooood.
anyhow, i'm quite relieved the week's nearly over. it's been an awful week. there's an evil depression bug going around lately, infecting anyone infect-able. people are taking turns to get depressed! the disease is currently incurable, as the search of drugs to combat the viral infection has not been carried out. the virus mutates at a very fast rate, and new strains of the virus are being produced at the rate of one new strain per day, resulting in different people getting depressed over different matters on different days.
and i just realised that i can't stand myself at times.

yu know, i find myself falling behind my work AGAIN. the lectures are going faster than the speed of my brain absorbing absorb-able information. and i feel.. lost during bio tutorials. especially when samuel constantly provides us with amazing biological insights that are mostly unknown to the normal beings. (or to me, at the very least) i feel stupid during math lessons, but i shall not elaborate on why i have difficulties understanding basic math concepts. i never regretted dropping amath in sec four though, haha. i miss the library couch. okay, out of point.

i always end up feeling guilty during chem tutorial lessons because i hardly do my homework and kt will go, "why didn't yu do your work?" with a tinge of disappointment in his voice. i will feel damn bad subsequently, but the bad feeling never lasts for more than 45 minutes - which happens to be equivalent to the amount of time in one period, haha. after all the bad feelings and a couple of new resolutions made up, i'll revert back to my stupid old not-so-sane self. and during the next chem tutorial lesson, history repeats itself.

i'm getting tired of this pointless cycle.
time to start studying!

my computer clock just told me that it's late, and i ought to start doing my homework soon. remedial lessons, notice board and national day rehearsals are taking up a lot of my time, but it's good cause they actually keep me from thinking about the depression bug.
and so, the search for a cure continues..

Thoughts Aloud at 12:26:00 am