June 17, 2005
what makes you happy?
i just came back from acjc band concert not long ago. i was so exhausted i fell asleep for a while. but i doubt anyone saw.. not even xy i suppose =) i know i should really throw myself off the building because I WAS
LATE and i made xy wait for
one hour! thankfully, she had her vj friends, so she wasn't alone. urgh, my perpetual lateness and making people wait pointlessly for me is getting on my own nerves and i feel like force gripping myself. i.s.w.e.a.r.
i realised.. i'm not alone actually. there are people who haven't been keeping up with their studies too. i felt rather consoled, although i know i shouldn't be feeling like that at all. i should be getting all worried and anxious. and i should start devising some ingenious plans to enable myself to finish studying for all my subjects without missing out topics before the holidays (which didn't seem like holidays) end. i should start mugging my ass off soon.
very very soon.
i should. but, can i? and, will i? haa, will i actually get settled down by the end of this week? a big question mark still hangs over my (weak) mental power to actually get started! i ought to be shot dead right now. i feel so dead. and screwed. and done for.
oh God.
i hope this sickening feeling will wear off by noon later. i need to get hyped up for the band bbq! final reminder for mj bandits :
TODAY'S THE DAY OF MJCSB'S SECOND FAREWELL CUM BBQ! don't miss it! i'll see all of yu there in the evening at
east coast park, bbq pits D-44 and D-45 =)
it won't be a flop. i know it won't be. -thinks positively
i'm quite overwhelmed with exhaustion and i should get going soon.
oh yes, before i forget. we finally got to see mo today! after millions of years. it feels so different to watch your batch mate perform. i remembered it was only last year when we used to play together as a section and band.. if only i could turn back time.
everybody's changing and i don't feel the same.
Thoughts Aloud at
12:53:00 am