November 19, 2004

YAYY! the o level exams are over in the blink of an eye. i thought i was gonna be tortured daily with the endless studying. especially for those subjects i absolutely abhor. for example, geog. i can remember vividly that i was still looking at page 162 of the physical geog textbook, trying to remember some stuff about rivers last friday. then it's like POOF! and everything suddenly comes to an end. i'm not quite used to coming home and heading straight for the comp. (act hardworking seyy) i'm coming to realise that i actually have some feelings for my chem files. i was lugging them home today and couldn't bear to throw them away. perhaps studying isn't THAT bad after all. i'm very sure i'll miss the certain classes i've had in this school. i'll miss my friends, my class(es) and blahh.

it seemed like last week when i was grumbling on the chem prac day that we still have one whole month of exams before we can actually be FREE. time reallyreally flies yu know. (cliche, but yah)

yeah. okay. i'm supposed to be rejoicing but i'm feeling detached suddenly. i don't want things to move on. just when i've managed to get over my sadness upon leaving tkgssb, i'm feeling sad all over again because i'm leaving my secondary school..! four whole years. it has been a really wonderful experience for me.
but, we've got to let go.

okayy, sadness aside. i'm truly happy today. i'm.. free. it feels good. really. i don't feel burdened by the books or anything anymore. my shoulders feel so.. relaxed(?). wheee. i hope it doesn't rain tmr. i wanna swim! with auddie. heh, hope her choir audition ends early.

frankly speaking, i feel a little worried. i'm worried for my results. but i shan't jinx myself at this moment in time.

the band tune-ins are coming soon. i feel so unprepared. i haven't touched a clarinet for.. months. i heard vj band auditions are quite strict. ahhh. and the thing is, we're NOT allowed to use the school's (tkgs') instruments. i'm dead. howhowhow. the thought of me playing out a decent clarinet sound is almost.. impossible. ahhh help? if we can't use the school's instrus, then i cannot practise at all. ahhhhh. and there's no more band prac until 17 dec! so that also means i can't use the juniors' instrus to practise. mm, am i dead or what.

oww and my legs ache.
pain.

Thoughts Aloud at 11:36:00 pm